Audrey Grace is finally here! Weighing 7lbs 8oz and 20 inches long. She was born on January 21, 2016 at 5:40 pm.
My body was showing no signs that labor was going to start naturally. I was swollen, hurting, and exhausted so my doctor agreed to induce on January 20 at 5 pm.
Darren and I arrived at the hospital and got settled into our room. This is where the nerves kicked in and reality set in. We were having a baby the next day! They started me on Cytotec and I was due for two more doses 6 hours apart. The contractions started ramping up after one dose. They were coming 1 1/2-2 minutes apart. Trying to “rest” through labor wasn’t going to happen. I envied my husband who was snoring on what the hospital called a couch. I never received my other two doses of Cytotec. The contractions were coming too close together. My first nurse made the comment about having a baby by midnight. “Um, what?!”
Needless to say, that did not happen. Come 4 am I was hurting and we didn’t even get the Pitocin party started. I received the epidural and the Pitocin was hung shortly after. I was able to rest before our family arrived to ride out the day with us. Sometime between day break and lunch, I was starting to feel everything on the left side of my body. I was pumping the Epidural pump as much as I could with no relief. I remember telling Brittany, weeks before delivery, that I was scared my epidural wouldn’t work! And here I was, my epidural wasn’t working on one side! Around noon, things starting progressing rather quickly. I went from 5 cm, to 7 cm, to 10 cm at 2:30 pm. I was exhausted from the pain. The anesthesiologist administered pain medicine four times in my catheter. Nothing was working. I just knew I would feel everything during delivery. The room was cleared out at 2:30 and the pushing game began. Come 5:00, momma was exhausted. I was done. She wasn’t coming and I didn’t know how much more I could do. My body was allowing me to sleep through contractions so I knew I was at the point of pure exhaustion. I told my nurse I had enough. I was more than ready to be wheeled into the operating room. My OB came in and gave me one last pep talk. He would try to get her out with the vacuum and if he couldn’t, he would perform a c-section.
Just then, a team of nurses swarmed the room prepping everything for baby. This is where things get foggy for me. I don’t know if it was exhaustion or the pain medicine. I remember my doctor telling me to push like I’ve never pushed before and I felt sudden relief. As he held up this tiny human, everything I had just went through no longer mattered. I just became a MOM and she looked every bit like her daddy! The excitement in Darren’s voice as he watched his daughter enter this world is something I’ll always cherish.
Listening to her cry for the first time was something I never thought I’d hear. Delivery was an experience I never thought I’d get to experience. Every contraction that felt like it would do me in was worth it. There are no words to explain the moment you see your daughter for the first time. The child you have begged God for. The child you cried countless tears over. Such an indescribable feeling. When we left our house that Wednesday afternoon, Darren made the comment, “leaving as a family of two, coming home as a family of three.” We were FINALLY a family of three! What an amazing feeling!
Now onto my husband. Wow! Darren was amazing during labor and delivery. He never left my side. I had to practically beg him to go get lunch or to just take a walk to get some fresh air. When I was on the verge of giving up, he was there telling me I could do it and pushing me to keep on going. He rubbed my back and talked me through contractions with ease. Seeing him with our daughter for the first time was something I had longed for and it was finally happening. The minute Audrey was born Darren’s life changed forever and this little girl had taken this grown man’s heart and she wasn’t giving it back.
If I said my recovery was easy, I’d be lying. I didn’t bounce back like most deliveries do but I’m finally feeling like Me again! Audrey is such a blessing in our lives. Darren and I can spend hours on end just looking at her. I can’t believe she is ours to keep. To have this little baby look at us and she knows exactly who we are makes our journey worth it. Audrey is such a perfect baby. She doesn’t fuss. She loves to cuddle and swing in her swing. When she’s awake, she’s so alert. She calms when her momma or daddy talk to her. She’s finally on a sleeping schedule and we are just thrilled about this! We love her so much! I always tried to think about what it would be like to be a mom, but reality is so much better than what I had conjured up.